When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.

Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with one another.

This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they are not there— even if they are only in the very next room.Your soul only feels their absence— it doesn’t realize the separation is temporary.” 

Timing is irrelevant when two people are meant for each other. It's what I once believed.

But we met during a time when I was such a mess, when I still had so much to figure out. How could I have known how crucial every word, every action was or how losing you would be something I would always regret?

If only you could have met me now, how different it would be. How much I have changed. How I have grown. I learned so much from all the mistakes I made with you. I just wish I had made them with someone else.” 

― Lang Leav, Lullabies

“I drew him in my world;
I write him in my lines,
I want to be his girl,
he was never meant as mine.

I drew him in my world;
He is always on my mind;
I draw his every line.
It hurts when he's unkind.

I drew him in my world;
I draw him all the time,
but I don't know where to draw the line.” 

― Lang Leav, Lullabies

There is a particular kind of suffering to be experienced when you love something greater than yourself. A tender sacrifice.It is in every considered step i am taking in the opposite direction of you.

I wonder if there will be a morning when you'll wake up missing me. That some incident in your life would have finally taught you the value of my worth. And you will feel a surge of longing, when you remember how i was good to you.

When this day come i hope you will look for me. I hope you will look with the kind of conviction i'd always hoped for, but never had from you. Because i want to be found. And i hope it will be you- who finds me.

Here are the things i want for you.

I want you to be happy. I want somebody else to know the warmth of your smile, to feel the way i did when i was in your presence.

I want you to know how happy you once made me and though you really hurt me, in the end. I was better for it. I don't know if what we had was love, but if it wasn't, i hope never to fall in love. Because of you, i know i am too fragile to bear it.

I want you to remember how you told me things you never told another soul. I want you to know that i have kept scared, everything you had entrusted in me and i always will.

Finally, i want you to know how sorry i am for pushing you away when i had only meant to bring you closer. And if i ever felt like home to you, it was because you were safe with me. I want you to know the most of all.

(credit to: Memories;For You by Lang Leav)