1. Get my license
2. Complete my study
3. Graduate on time
4. Help someone else through a difficult situation in their life
5. Change someone's life 
6. Give more than I receive
7. Become a teacher
8. Buy my first home
9. Buy my first car
10. Own my dream house
11.  Own my dream car (Toyota Vios)
12. Get in shape!
13. Reach my goal weight (45kg)
14. Find that special guy. And yeah i finally found someone special for me and i hope he's going to be my forever after prince charming
15. Lasting relationship/ grow old with someone i love
16.  Marry the love of my life
17. Have kids (3-4 cute kids)
18. Be called mommy
19. Spend a night in a tree house
20. Cuddle in a rainy day
21.  Travel around the world with the love of my life
22. Spend a night with my love on a yacht, out at sea
23. Ride the craziest Roller-coasters in the world
24. Go scuba diving
25. Go surfing (and learn how!)
26. Go skydiving
27. Explore the ocean on a submarine
28. See a volcano
29. Go on an aquarium date
30. Go on a helicopter ride
31. Go bungee jumping
32. Go hand/para gliding
33. Walking along the beach with bikini with my love one
34. Kiss on the beach during sunset
35. Ride in a hot air balloon
36.  Learn to speak a foreign language fluently
37. Grow a garden from all seeds that I saved before
38. Support my family financially  
39. Visit every park in my city
40. Live by the beach.
41. Stay up late or get up early
42. Go on the skydeck
43. Travel in a first class
44. Live to meet my gradchildrens 
45. Spend my whole days watching movies
46. Stop being so afraid
47. Stop being soooo clingy 
48. Watch my children get married
49. Go on stargazing date
50. Sleep on the beach
51. Be a volunteer
52. Ride a gondola in Venice
53. Hug a penguin
54. Ride a camel
55. Let go of a floating lantern
56. Take cute kissing picture
57. Be kissed unexpectedly 
58. Explore a real castle
59. Move to a different country
60. Have a surprise party throw on me
61. Take a road trip with no planned destination
62. Be the best parent I can be
63. Ride the london eye
64. Go to universal studios
65. Visit a tropical rainforenst
66. Hike through Gunung Kinabalu
67. Watch the sunrise with love
68. Walked behind a waterfall
69. Learn to let go
70. Spend a whole day sleeping
71. Layin the road at the middle of the night
72. Learn to accept the things I cannot change
73. Watch a meteor shower
74. Ride an elephant
75. Participate in a colour run
76. Go on vacation by myself
77. Hug a panda
78. Spend new years together
79. Have a romantic night picnic
80. Visit the seven wonders
81. Cooking together with my love
82. Looked pretty during my pregnancy
83. Cuddle next to a campfire a eat marshmallow
84. Ride a double decker bus
85. Take regular family walks.
86. Take regular bike rides.
87. Spend less time talking online and more time living real life.
88. Have regular days where I am just alone.
89. Create a home where people love to visit.
90. Read aloud with my children and grandkids until the day I die.
91. Take one photo a day for a year.
92. Help my children develop their God given talents to see how they can impact their world.
93. Foster an environment where my children always want to come home and invite others.
94. Cultivate a relationship with my children, in which they always feel comfortable talking to me about anything.  Nothing off limits.
95.  Regular special date with my children.
96. Take a family vacation yearly.
97. Take a girl’s trip yearly.
98.  Care for chickens in my backyard (i'm growing old like my nanny)
99. Have a big family
100. Follow my dreams :)

by Lang Leav in Lullabies.

 

I wish I knew why he left. What his reason were. Why he changed his mind.

For all these years, I have turned it over in my head—all the possibilites—yet none of them make any sense.

And then I think, perhaps it was beacause he never loved me. But that makes the least sense of all.

― Lang Leav

I don't know if I want you, he says. But I do know I don't want anyone else to have you.

It wasn't good enough, I knew that. Honestly, I did. In my mind it was crystal clear. My heart however, was having a serious case of selective hearing. All it heard was, I don't want anyone to have you. And within that---was a glimmer of hope, a spark of optimism.
False Hope (by Lang Leav)

― Lang Leav

(credit:Amends;Memories by Lang Leav)

It's been a year for the fasting month. Now Ramadan is just around the corner and i guess all muslims already started planning their 'fasting goals' Well, believe it or not...whatever you do ...wherever you go, these experiences will always be the same. Let the games begin!

• geared up and think this whole month will be a piece of cake
•  make it a point to refrain from any kind of social networking or internet use. It's like gambling somehow
•  try to be nice to everyone, even though it quite difficult
• good time for weight loss, but when its finally iftar time... umm well Ramadan is about losing sins not weight
• days start feeling longer than they actually are

Common, you guys had years of experience fasting right! I think everybody dreamt somehow to fullfilled their fasting month without "puasa yangyok" you know. HAHAHAHA 

Allah keeping the records and may we're protected by HIM from any diaster we never knew along this Ramadan. 

I found a nice quote of Ramadan "don't change yourself only for Ramadan but change youself for your entire life.". I pray that i can fix my heart even more.

 So guys, have you prepare for Ramadan?

The one who miss me when I am dissappear is no one but myself,

Hurting,
Stabbing,
Self depreciation,
Need a fix,mine

I was drown in the river of life,
Without nothing afford,
Or to give a beautiful sense in a word to comfort myself
I was helpless,
To which only forgiveness that i can ask of myself.

But know this,
I hate myself,
Busy carving my own scars again and again.

And know that,
for all of that
i will not allow it to happen
because
as i hate myself and disapper

I'll miss me even more.

credit:aloy paradoks

Aku teringat perasaan ketika orang yang aku selalu ws dan call, namanya akan selalu kat atas list recent contact aku.

Lepas tu dia makin ke bawah.


Kemudian hilang.

Rileks.
Bukan cerita depress.
Teringat je, teringat.

Love the way you lie part 2 really brings up memories and hits me with every word. Here i'm going to share the lyrics.

On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you’ll always be my hero
Even though you’ve lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Oh, I love the way you lie

Now there’s gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war you’ll always win
Even when I’m right
‘Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it’s sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
'Til the walls are goin’ up
In smoke with all our memories

It's morning, you wake, a sun ray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
That we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’?
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
But together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refuse counsellin’
This house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
'Cause with you I’m in my fuckin’ mind, without you I’m out it

If only tears could heal the pain I’m feeling right now, I’ll spend my whole life crying cause I know I’ll stay in love with him for the rest of my life knowing he can never love me back.