a i: friendship

rumors

13 October

The past twenty-four hours of my life have been so disgustingly nauseating that I'm actually starting to feel like a ... puddle of ... cat .. VOMIT !!

Okay, I can handl the utter humiliation of walking around campus oblivious to the fact that my backpack is not zipped properly. Hey, I can even handle a mild concussion. But, what I can't handle is the fact that someone started an awful rumors about me ! Her ex-boo told me everything about the rumors that created by her. Ohh bitch please, just cut the crap.

Rumors has it that I being her friend for my benefits (not friend with benefit. I'm not a lesbian). Totally she used to be my best friend since part 3. Of course I totally freaked when I heard it ! Not only is a dare like that rude and insensitive, but it's a very cruel joke to play on people like... well.. Me.

I was sure yhe whole thing was a big fat lie ! Of course I did'nt do it. Sorry ! But everyone knows about my true nature. I am very outspoken person but just NASTY if people try to make fool of me.I'd totally believe that she just tryin' to catch the attention of her ex-boo. Yes totally. Drop dead bitch !

I like rumors ! I find out so much about me that I didn't even know.

Hey I'll be the first to admit, that rumor could have been a lot worse. Haters gonna hate. But still.... Just wish she would stay out of my personal business. After this. I mean my MORTAL enemy !! I don't know why that bitch HATES MY GUTS. It wasn't my fault.

Unfortunately, I learned today that is hard to trust everyone around me. Cause the only person I can rely on now is myself.Listen babe, there such nothing for me too lose. You just nothing for me even people said your something. Dean. Wealthy ? Just because of you got a gift from your father for you achievement on SPM. A SECOND-HANDED SUZUKI SWIFT ? Ohh bitch please,for me you just a naive girl who's lack of love, the lonely girl. Well, I being your friend because of I'm a human. I give you mercy. I just being happy without you. Babe, nothing too lose. I can try everything. I gain more. You just a troublesome for me. No more mercy. I hope that you will learn to appreciate people. Money can't buy friendships. Just get lost !!!!

Rumors are CARRIED by HATERS, SPREAD by FOOLS, and ACCEPTED by IDIOTS.

I DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING FROM YOU! I JUST REGRET BEING NICE TO YOU. APOLOGIZING WHEN I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG. AND REGRET FOR MAKING UNWORTHY PEOPLE LIKE YOU A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE. NOW I HOPE YOU JUST DROP DEAD BITCH. NO MORE MERCY. GET LOST FROM MY SIGHT !!! SORRY TO INFORM YOU BUT I'VE SEEN A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO HAD TWO FACED. YOU SAID THAT YOU'RE REGRET KNOWING ME. I'M 100% IDGAF.

2 Comments

ego

wail-fayer

10 October

Dalam life aku, apa-apa benda je kekadang boleh buat aku menangis,

terlalu marah,

terlalu suka,

terlalu sedih,

terlalu penat.

Ada hari yang mana kerja assignment tinggi menggunung, bila salah buat calculation and cari buku tak jumpa pun boleh menangis.

Ada hari yang mana aku rasa sangat happyand blissful with all stuff that happened around me. Buatkan aku rasa nak lompat nak cakap kat semua oang yang aku sayang.

Gila.. Faggot..

Entah. Panggil la aku apa yang korang nak.

Kali ni ku nak cerita pasal keajaiban dalam relationship pula. Life ni memang sangat magik. Macam mana kau tengok kawan kau grow, grow,grow and grow. From this person to this person. Time does fly by. Kalau adamata dan masauntuk tengok semua perubahan dalam diri manusia, aku rasa aku akan pilih untuk melihat. Hahaha (apa yng lawak pun taktau lah).

Cerita ni mengenai orang yang aku SAYANG. Kawan sekolah aku. Kali ni nak mention their name, Yatt, Aaina, Nanie, Fatin and Fazila. Once, we used to be quite closed to another. Best friends forever. Yes I miss them much. Macam mana aku miss all the silly jokes and moments dengan diorang. The next thing you know, it just KABOOM! BAM! Since masing-masing masuk universiti. Diorang dah ada life on their own, away from me.

Dan aku dengan life aku dengan apa yang ada terus go on macam biasa. Kadang kami sempat jumpa. Tapi sekejap sangat. Masing-masing jauh. Cuti semester pun tak sama. Bila berjumpa, melepak tak lagi macam biasa, jokes tak sama macam dulu, nostalgia adalah nostalgia. Just that one moment, bila aku ketawa bersama-sama dengan diorang and was hoping that phone masing-masing rosak. Masa terus berputar, bawa kembali ke masa lampau. (Jiwang sikit..Malu aih). Time-time aku berlapar dengan diorang, Time aku pergi market ikan dengan diorang, time fail add math, time fail biology, time menangis dengan dorang banyak sungguh time kami bersama.

"All I had was my mom, all I had was you guys..We had dreams together, and all I sold everything to join that dream... and then it ended."

Salute bila duduk sorang-sorang Hormon apa benda entah yang datang. Hormon ni memang pengacau terhebat! dan aku masih tertanya-tanya kenapa phone aku rabak dan susah nak berWhatsApp dengan dorang. Kayy kami tak lose contact pun. But slightly changed from before. Ada masalah terus je contact. But, nothing last forever yet. I just hope our friendship last longer than ever. Jangan biar harapan terus jadi harapan. Start now for the better end. Aku pun ada ego juga. tak nak rendahkan ego dengan Fazila. haha sorry babe. So babes, AKU RINDU KAMU-KAMU. YES,KAMU.